well today's kinda an "eh" day, if ya know what i mean! i donno why...i think being cooped up in the house all winter is playin with my mind *lol* this is the longest i've gone without working outside the home, and i'm still learning to be with me, myself, and i 24/7.
dont get me wrong--i wouldnt give up being able to work from home unless i really had to, i love it! having time to do what i want to do is awesome!! and i know one day when we have kids i'll be thankful i have housekeeping routines down pat and the like. but sometimes it gives me too much time to think and be whiny *hehehe!*
on the upside, my weigh-in this mornin showed a 4.2lb "loss" last week! so, im .6lb away from the lowest ive been at 210.6. only 13.2lb to go to my 10% loss goal! WOOT! (by the way, im not as anal about my weigh in amounts as it seems--our scale measures to the .2lb so i just go by that! hehehe!)
as of how i feel today, im expecting the next day or two to be tough unless i get my act together. my mental state isnt 100% peppy, if ya know what i mean :P prolly pms or something. LOL!!! i should be downing my dong quai and raspberry leaf teas--those will help balance some of that out! oh well, you cant do it all, all the time. i keep telling myself "BABY STEPS" and it'll eventually completely sink in!
*LONG PAUSE*
well whattaya know, i just cheered my own self up. LOL! here's something i posted on my sparkpeople journal:
a previous SparkPeople Healthy Reflection:
"Often our first reaction to a stressful situation is to overcompensate and overwork to overcome whatever it is. Sometimes though, the best thing you can do it step away, take a breath, and come back to tackle the problem with a clear head. Replacing important things in your life with work only causes anxiety to build up--not to mention that it takes the joy out of life. Vacation does not have to mean physically leaving your everyday life and jet setting to the beach. Whatever relaxes you, brings more clarity, or calms your mind during times of stress can certainly be enough to rejuvenate! When logic tells you to quicken your pace and pile on the extra work, yet your heart is reminding you of the meaningful time you are neglecting with family, friends, and yourself, it's time to slow down. Often letting off on the gas for a period of time can compose and refocus your mind."
i donno about you, but many times my FIRST tendency when faced with a stressful situation is just to CHECK OUT! shut down, wimp out, pitypartypoorme!
altho it may only be temporary, i realize now that this is a huge red flag--telling me im too burnt out to take a proactive step in solving a sticky situation. this year, im learning to be nice to myself. YES, to LOVE myself! its so dang hard! *LOL* for many years, my only pep talks to myself were to cheer myself on when snarfing down junk food! hahah! that was not loving myself. (obviously. hehe.)
i have been making a conscious effort to do something nice for myself nearly every day now. taking a relaxing bath, reading, talking to/emailing friends & family more, taking a break in my day to sit quietly and enjoy a cup of hot tea... i know, many people say "i dont have time for that stuff! i have kids/spouse/job/housework/ etc..."
but honestly--how can you take care of everything/everyone else in the most loving, cheerful way if you yourself are running on empty? it took me a long long time to believe this and reprioritize. but now i am slowly reaping the benefits every single time i choose to be kind, gentle, and loving to myself by taking just a little time each day FOR ME! :):)
i guess that's one benefit to having a blog or journal. you can go back and read things you wrote on days you felt on top of the world, positive, and in good spirits. this was a good reminder for me that just sitting on my butt all day long, not showering, and feeling sorry for myself for whatever goofy reason is not doing any good!!
im off to take my puppy outside to play, and then im coming in for a warm bath, some hot chocolate, and to start a fire in the fireplace! (and of course start the laundry, too. LOL life's not ALL fun and games ya know!! teehee!)
OH and one other thing! in my yahoo group, we're doing an 8-week Spring Cleaning mission! each week will be something new to choose from. this week the missions focus on our TIME...and how we can make our time spent doing normal everyday things more special and meaningful. i chose to focus on time spent with my hubby, friends, family, and pets.
im going to call my good long-distance friends laura and sarah this week, and try to get together with my friend rachel. im also going to drop a few emails ive been putting off! AND im gonna spend some extra time loving on/grooming/playing with my sweet furry kidlings *LOL* and best of all, im going to do something special with my hubbysweetie pie sometime this week (donno what or when yet hehe!).
okay off to put on socks, boots and a coat and run out with my maizy puppers! thanks for letting me vent and cheer up! *hehe*
enjoy the day :)
~jos~
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