ramblin time!

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!! =)



yes, yes im still here!! i know its been a couple weeks. but im sure you can guess what i’ve been doing after reading my last post…yup, hangin out at the fast food joints! ACK!!! okay well not quite that bad, but not very good, either. i definitely didnt get under 200 during the month of may. and im DEFINITELY never going to make another promise in this blog, because i think im hard-wired to break them!! LOL!! esp when it comes to food.



welllp lets start with the good stuff :) im still hovering around 206-208. so i havent gained! even better is that i’ve been consistently active. YAY!



i’ve been going to yoga 2-3 times a week, and absosmurfly LOVELOVELOVE it. it makes me feel so strong! (and sore all the time…haha…but that will eventually go away!) and now that i’ve finally got most of the poses down, i have been more able to concentrate on the breathing. that has worked miracles on my anxiety!! and it just gives me energy and focus. i love it.



im not trying to be all new-agey-nerdy, but im serious, i wish i’d have started yoga years ago. its just an all-around good-for-you thing to do. and dont EVEN think i dont sweat my butt off doing it!! LOL! its not like little wimpy stretches for an hour. the poses take tons of balance and strength, and surprisingly ive noticed a difference in especially my upper body strength even in the last few weeks.



my teacher is awesome, and really encourages everyone in the class to modify the poses to their own comfort level and ability. she is in her 50s, and she looks GOOD. i want to look good when im in my 50s, too! heck i wanna look good NOW! haha!!



i also ended up getting a summer membership to the athletic club where the yoga class is. im doing weight training once a week, and will work up to twice a week soon. it also gives me access to any of the other classes they have—one i want to try is called Zumba. its some sort of latin dance aerobics or something. all i know is i peeked in the door and it looked fun!



im getting an okay amount of cardio just doing yoga (all that breathing is good for your heart and lungs, believe me!), and i also ride my bike occasionally, but an aerobics class once in a while might be fun!



OH and this weekend, me and the hubby got a portable basketball hoop for the driveway!! he loves shootin hoops, and even tho i totally suck at it, i have fun doing it with him *hehe* and its awesome aerobic exercise—and all i have to do is walk outside to do it. this summer i have NO EXCUSES to be sitting on my butt!! that’s for sure!!!



another thing i’ve started doing is volunteering at a local agricultural institute. its an awesome organization that promotes organic/sustainable farming and students pretty much run the gardens as part of internships or practicums. they also get volunteers to help keep things running smoothly.



that’s what i love about the little town i live in! there are tons of local farms that are organic and free-range. the ag institute also has a little market where they sell a lot of the produce and local dairy/meat. i love shopping there!



anyhoo, last week was my first week of helping out, and they had me working with a 15-year-old kid from Germany! he’s here for the summer on a practicum. he was really interesting! and somehow, i kept up with him while we hacked down plants, hauled compost and did some harvesting. i was so glad it was fairly cool out or im sure i would have wimped out! LOL! we worked from 8-noon. i’ll be doing that every week now—and i also get a huge bag of fresh produce every time for doing it! WOOHOO!



in other news, my 15-year high school class reunion is next month. LOL…yes, now you know how YOUNG i am ;) i guess i’ve never really planned on going, mostly just because i really dont feel like i’ve done much with my life.



now now, im not being a sad-sack! its just that all my old buddies have kids, which to me, really gives you so much to talk about. who wants to hear about me, one of the honor students who got a college degree and doesnt use it, and now gets to work from home a few hours a week and pretty much do whatever else i want to do with my time?? LOL!!!



and all i have to brag about is my 4 cats and dog…i do NOT want to be labeled as the freaky pet person! HAHA!! ;) even tho i love my life, im somewhat embarassed!! i know, its that old high school mentality taking over, comparing myself to others. DUMB. im sure they dont care. i just dont want it to be a bad experience, ya know? ive had enough of that lately! hehe!!



i suppose another reason i dont feel like going is that it might be super awkward for me if certain other people are there and i dont want to make them feel weerd, either. its just not been long enough i guess for me to be desperate to see a lot of my classmates. several of them have actually emailed me lately, and i love it!!! they all sound so happy and i am sooo happy for them. hopefully i’ll keep in contact with them even after the reunion time is over.



and of course i dont want people to come up to me and say, “i dont remember you…?” since i weigh about 80lb more than i did 15 years ago! LOL! im sure im not the only one, but sometimes i just dont feel like “the old me.” is that just what happens when you get older? the “old you” just fades away and you get slapped with a new, funky body and image? ROTFL!



ahhh anyhoo, enough rambling about that. i’m pretty sure i wont be going, but i guess there’s always a chance i may change my mind. i’ll let you know!



whew! welp, i guess i’ll go for now! oh and FYI, my goal for this month is once again, to attempt to find ONE-derland! (that’s under 200.) im not going to force myself into totally giving up ANYTHING, either. its all about moderation this month and continuing to be active. AND most of all, being kind to myself, inside AND out. i deserve it, dangit!!!



have an awesome day!!!!! im off to make a cup of green tea…



~jos~