good eeeeevening *lol*
so hey, this week is going great! i hope the same for you. i ate out some over the weekend but i tried to shy away from the worst--burgers and fries. and it paid off not piggin out--my weigh in yesterday showed a 2.4lb loss last week. YAY!!!
yesterday and today have been GREAT as far as food goes...and im not craving the fast food. *whew!* today i had yoga class for an hour, and then this afternoon i rode my bike around town for about an hour running errands and getting some ingredients for bread! so i got a good workout today :D
so, this bread im making...i hope it turns out! i actually didnt cheat and use my bread machine, either! i gotta freakin good upper body workout kneading this stuff...for a total of nearly 15 min! (in 2 sessions lol, but still!!) it was a flippin huge wad of dough, so i was dang tired afterward. LOL!
anyhoo, i decided that even tho my naturopath doesnt want me to eat wheat, im going to allow myself to have spelt and kamut as long as its organic. they are wheat's ancestors, per se; IMHO the better, un-messed-up versions, esp when organic! so, i am making (yep, still workin onnit...on the final rise!!) oatmeal bread!!
i used organic rolled oats, organic oat bran, and organic whole spelt flour. the recipe i found was enough to make a loaf in a pan, a free-form smaller loaf and 8 sandwich buns. im really excited! i LOVE oatmeal bread , and i am hoping this recipe is really yummilicious so i can make more and freeze it. i'll let you know how it turns out!!
okay, so one last thing i have to yack about. have you ever been in a situation in your life where you exit from someone else's life, with a lot of things unsaid? i mean, drastically removed yourself and severed the relationship completely, but have regrets and just always have this nagging feeling now that you've had time to chew on everything that you should ask for forgiveness so you can move on even tho the relationship will never be the same?
well, i have been struggling with this exact situation for a few years now. i really dont want to go into personal details, but let me just convey this core thought: whether or not the other person was at fault, whether or not you feel deep down they deserve YOUR forgiveness, whether or not you feel you should be so meek to ask for their forgiveness--THINK ABOUT IT. do you want to play tough guy and live your whole life never feeling your full humanness?
well, i asked for forgiveness and received it. i admitted my mistakes and didnt point out theirs...that's not what it was about. it was about doing the right thing in God's eyes and finishing the human heart healing process. it was such a liberating feeling to receive that blessing of forgiveness. it felt so good to admit i was selfish and less than mature at one point in my life, and then to be genuinely, completely forgiven for it.
and most importantly...after all this, i had a realization about how God forgives us. see, i had asked God's forgiveness for my mistakes in this relationship a long time ago. but i always had that less-than-forgiven feeling in my heart. when i asked this person to forgive me just recently, i thought that's what i needed to get rid of that feeling.
but it wasnt--altho yes, it was the right thing to do in this situation--what i needed was to truly believe God had forgiven me. sometimes when we look back and see stupid things we've done, its hard to believe God will say, "okay no problema, slate clean!" but he does!!
but i also believe he is pleased when we can go to the person we've wronged and admit it and ask THEIR forgiveness, as long as we can determine that it will not further hurt that person. hopefully God is clapping for me, that for once i learned something important in life.
we should see forgiveness as a gift, unconditional and finite, between both God and man, and ourselves and fellow man. its what hope and truly joyful hearts are made of.
~josey~
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