too much thinking

hey all =D



well i certainly hope i'm not the only one in the world who just thinks too much! since i posted my last blog, something kinda mack-trucked me *lol* i mean, i've already discussed with you folks how i know i am a chronic over-analyzer ;P but i never took it seriously that it could be detrimental to my health!



i'll just cut to the point--i think too much about my health, especially the "what ifs." it stresses me out! and stress is bad for your health! (duh.)



i mean, yes, i know i have a disease (endometriosis), but its not fatal. just because i have it doesnt mean i will get some sort of female cancer or other superserious disease despite what my over-paranoid mind thinks. and im not laid up in bed in excruciating pain half the month like many women who have it. im very fortunate.



my mom said to me on the phone yesterday that i take better care of myself than anyone she knows. i was surprised to hear that! i am always comparing myself to the people who have wills of steel, who can reach their goals in record time, and exude the air of perfect mental, physical and spiritual health. of course, they arent perfect--and most of them have more than likely been down the road i am traveling right now!



i need to be happy in the here and now. i need to STOP WORRYING because i am missing out on enjoying the blessings i have in my life!!



my hubby rocks, my pets make me laugh, i have great family and relationships, i dont work outside the home and i have plenty of free time. i AM healthy. i love where i live.



so WHY AM I STRESSED OUT? there's absolutely no reason to be. am i just so bored that its the only thing i can find to do?? LOL!



okay im starting to ramble. *teehee* i may not have typed much (um okay, much for ME. LOL) but i have a gazillion thoughts running thru my over-analyzing little mind! what i'm getting to is that even tho i have this thirst for more and more knowledge on nutrition, health, healing, and weight loss, i honestly believe i need to slack off a LOT on that and just LIVE.



enjoy life and find some purpose instead of focusing on ME ME ME.



what's the point of having good health if all i do is sit around worrying if my good health isnt as good as i think it is? ROTFL!



my hubby told me the other day i have all the knowledge i need to be free of my endo symptoms, lose weight, and be healthier. i know he's right. i need to put my plan of action in play and be as consistent as i can, and NOT OVER-ANALYZE it and change it everytime i read something new!



i need to fill my time with some creative, artistic hobbies, being more active or even more volunteering. i realize now that i sit around reading too much, filling my mind with doubt that im not doing something right and then, once again, i am stress and anxiety-filled. it does bad things to me! (racing heart, upset stomach, fatigue, fitful sleep, weird pains!) and it UNdoes all the good things i AM doing! :\



whew, okay! enough lecturing myself!! LOL ;) hopefully this realization im having can be applied to something in your life as well. dont miss out on the wonderful, unique things in your life today...a loving spouse, cute kids, funny pets, sunshine on your shoulders, a thoughtful friend, or heck, just having so much more than we really need!!



(yes, i usually have to end my blog with a relatively cheesey, albeit sincere, thought! hahah!!! )



enjoy your weekend, and dont think too much!!!



~josey~